Hello angels,
i really enjoyed myself yesterday. But in that 24hours, I cried thrice.
Mixed emotions and for 3 different reasons.
One for I saw how bliss I am, I saw how much some people love me. Two for I was reminded there'd be changes I don't want to face, because I just like it this way. Three for some other decisions I've made.
Birthdays are just a happy-sad event?
I'm glad I spent that day with really, my favourite people.
Will blog about that eventful day tomorrow. Fond memories, for always.
I supposed so..?
Anyway, time literally teleported. I can't believe I am going to welcome my 19th birthday in barely 1 hour's time.
I feel... Extremely calm.
There are a lot of people asking me out (I choose to believe so), planning this and that for me on my special day. Love it.
Looking back, 18 on the 18th. Once in a lifetime. I consider myself pretty lucky to say this. Imagine you are born on 3rd. 3 on the 3rd? Please, you wouldn't think it is anything special. 31 on the 31st? That is provided there is 31st in your month (imagine feb).
I mean, I'm not trying to bring anyone down. I just want to remind myself how fortunate I am. In many many ways.
So, the past 1 year.. Well, I would say it is the start of my life-changing year. In that 366 days, I made new friends, strengthened the bonds with those I can't live without, learned to appreciate people, especially my family, so much more, took things naturally, stopped relying on people for everything possible and opened myself up.
I had horrible and stressful days before A levels, studying and planning my future. Not that I've any goals in mind now.... :/ at least I am moving forward. My destination might not be clear as of now but I believe the fog will clear up soon.
The studying and really fond school memories occupied two-third of that year.
The rest of the one-third involved taking the scariest examinations, fearing for my future every single day, worked (and is still working) in a great place with awesome company. Really can't thank them for everything. They showered me with endless amount of care and love. Gonna thank god for every moment there. Learn a lot, changed - better and happier. The thought of leaving never fails to sadden me :(
(change topic before everything gets too sentimental).
I wrote enough for my friends, directly or indirectly. Every single person has impacted me in one way or another. I want to give credits to some people I barely mentioned here. Family.
I am really grateful. Like REALLY. From birth to now, they have tolerated probably 1 tonne worth of shit from me and have their hearts broken 1001 times.
I must be one of the reasons for the grey they have, the wrinkles that run across their faces, the tiredness in their eyes...
Disappoint them enough, I can't anymore, taking charge of my own life and making sure I'd live better and work harder.
Told ya it is the start of my life-changing year... I feel so different. I feel like I really do have a brain to think. For myself and the people around me. It'd get better, right?
To be honest, life is so good nowadays. Things in general are smooth-sailing, problems get their solutions and wishes come true. I secretly wish such (sheer) luck will continue. At the same time, I am constantly frightened because i don't want this chain of happiness to end.
害怕幸福会用完 (afraid id finish my doze of happiness).
Guess it's too early to worry. Read somewhere: worrying is like carrying an umbrella around in a sunny day, waiting for it to rain.
Today I had a birthday dinner celebration with my Fam, aunt gave me an ang Bao, mama got me a cake (which I haven't cut) and sist gave me a notebook. Very cute. Simple gestures like this <3 we are definitely not a bunch of expressive people but that doesn't mean we don't care for each other. I sincerely believe so.
Last 3 mins. This post too a tad longer. Sorry for any weird sentence structure/grammar. I'd check again when I have time.
To end everything off, thanks and happy birthday jielin. 19years old will be great. Happy birthday :3
Thursday (today): FEP after work, dinner with family
Friday: Event in Sentosa
Sat: celebration with dearestz
Sun: Stay-home-Sunday
Effects: Camera360
(GO DL THIS IPHONE APP RIGHT NOW, LOVE IT TO BITS)
I'm here!
Forgot to mention these in the last post.
Thursday, 10/5/2012:
Went to celebrate JC's 21st on Thurs @ Manhattan Fish Market. Very much unplanned. Waited for really long to get a seat + for the food. Not as good as what it used to be. Chatted a lot with the girls hoho us and our nonsense.
Side dish to share
No more pictures because we were too hungry.
Group photo!Happy birthday toufu!
Thank you for making my 2 years so much more pleasant. I also had many fond memories with ya, especially when we went for UK trip.
Friday, 11/5/2012:
Impromptu meet-up with appy and bernice! Went shopping and finally got a dress for Friday's event. Have to head down to FEP to get it altered. Meh.
Can't believe I hit really well with someone I barely know. Becoming more sociable or she's just nice to interact? Got a pack of peppero (nomnom I love that stuff) from bernice. :3
I'm a happygirl.
(wrote about the weekend in the previous post. Only irritating people care about the flow okay)
Haaaaa just plain lazy.
Countdown to special day:
4!
Today involved a whole lot of walking, shopping likea auntie and eating likea pig.
Tried some Japanese fried noodles thingy in Taka basement (from my colleague) and it was really nice! #craving
The best thing we got?!?!
INSTANT NOODLES. NOT JOKING. LOOK AT THIS!
Piggy fishcake instant noodles ($5.10 for a pack of 4)
This is literally cup noodles. A little small and overpriced but it is super adorable!
Apparently this cute stuff tastes good!
Where to get: Cold Storage, Takashimaya
Guess you've realised I changed my blog bg and a couple of other stuff here.
Yes, I'm trying to declare/remind you every moment my birthday is coming. :D
I had so much food this week. Like SO.MUCH.
Just look at the meal I had on Monday. Hohoo sinful much. Giant chicken all in my tummy.
I am terribly sorry because I accidentally deleted other photos of the week. LOL like off my computer. Permanently. T___T
Anyway, yesterday was epic max. Woke up late for NTU tea session (I know...). Went to NTU and the talk ended. Okay, it sort of ended before I reach the compound. Ended up in Lot1 nomming Korean food (been craving for years) which doesn't turn out to be as nice anymore, bought nonsense stuff at Japan Home. Back home for a nap and tons of masks. Sum the day up with a short meet up with dearests + discuss about plans for my birthday celebration. Glad at least there are people fretting over my special day.
Today I had so much food. Oh well. Food topic again.
Got a little cheese tart for my dearest moma. Happy Mothers' Day <33
Dad seems to be cooking delicious food for us heheheeee. Can't wait for dinner.
Shall help my dad a little and gonna go pack my room etc because everywhere is in a horrible mess. Sighhhh. Actually all I wanna do is chill and probably sleep the rest of my day away.
This is happening..... I MISS MY HAIR.
Ya, miss longer hair. Shall grow it!
Inspiring enough.
Ohhi, BLOG TOMORROW. LIKE WITH PICTURES AND ALL.
I'm losing the passion to write. I'm losing the excitement for my birthday. I'm losing myself in this mundane, repetitive life. Okay, maybe not mundane nor repetitive, especially when there are just so many upcoming events.
Idk what's with me but I'm not excited nor looking forward to my 18th May. Not particularly happy or sad. Guess it is not a bad thing after all? What exactly should I expect for my birthday? What do I want? Tons of presents? Gathering with all my friends and loved ones? Party the night away?
No, I don't want all that. Weirdly, even when I'm surrounded by people I will feel the same amount of emptiness..? Very hard to explain but I believe most of the people will experience this kinda feeling before.
It just seems like that day isn't any special. Well, it is really a plain day for the majority.
I guess all I want is someone to tell me
"Thank god you are born this day"
Not a winter kid but that doesn't matter It is a really heart warming song, you should go listen!
Speaking of dream high, I have 2 more eps to finish. But I sort of know the ending already trololoolll.
Btw, you can follow my blog if you want. Once I update (especially at weird crazy hours like now), you will know.