为什么我没有为我努力的人，也没有值得我努力的人呢？

Many people are telling me, I am eighteen - prime age. The period where I've tons of energy, time and courage to pursue dreams, create memories and surprise myself.

But why is my golden age is horrible? Dull, boring, lost and alone?

I don't want a lot in life. I just wish I can be truly happy and live a life filled with purposes, be a useful woman and make someone's world a better place.



Achieving nothing and I'm panicking everyday. Man I know I'm too 'young' to worry; but the uncertainties are driving me nuts.

I'm afraid, frightened. What if I live my whole life like this? I dont want to.
God please save me.

I promise I will continue to be hopeful tomorrow. As for today, I am tired.


The emptiness is just ripping me apart. I need a getaway, a purpose, a happy day and a person in my life right now.

Im sad over nothing, literally.
Not sad, just moody and ... Panicky?

Impatient > panic > rush > decision > fail decision > wrong choice/act > regret > sad > cry > okay > repeat cycle.



Meh I should just live this moment and change song. The song is making me damn upset in the middle of work.